Gnarly Snafu

Custerfuck is a funny word
it describes situations that are beyond normal repair
some clusterfucks are even beyond repair
and no amount of retribution or compromise will fix them
for whatever reason, instead of getting better, things only get worse
problems that at one time could’ve been resolved amicably
fester and grow into insurmountable obstacles
solutions that once had a chance of bearing fruit
later seem like the foolhardy pipedreams
of misguided optimists
who couldn’t face facts

One such clusterfuck is my gnarly snafu
on the surface it would seem simple enough to fix
after all, it only involves a few hearts and souls
but these hearts and souls apparently have minds of their own
different agendas, different needs, different loves, different dreams
world peace and a balanced budget seem more within reach
than these few souls loving each other again
encountering alien life forms seems more likely
than these 3 hearts that once were one
getting in the same room
and hashing things out

Reconciliation has proven elusive
all this time has only complicated matters
maybe too much time and too many subplots
to ever really untangle this gnarly snafu
especially since not everyone even feels it is necessary
true love is fickle and often unrequited
unrequited love is noble, but sad
being sad is something you get used to
craving the love of my own flesh and blood
is a feeling that won’t go away
till they put dirt on my box

But, since my love is strong enough
whether it is reciprocated or not
no obstacle shall be too insurmountable
a thousand clusterfucks will not kill my tiny light
false hope is better than no hope
 and trying is better than dying
with all of my love still unrequited
and me believing it was for lack of effort
closure doesn’t always mean reconciliation
this may come to an unhappy ending
but even that would be better 
than no ending at all


Bryans Road, Maryland
4/20/2012